Dear Diary
After 15 hours of sleep last night, I felt better, but, my sneaky mind wanted to be lazy. Today, I just started my next project. This all works, I know it all depends on me. There is no deadline except what I plan on, which means I can always cancel or delay it. Of course, I’m not gonna do it. But you know, sometimes, I want to be in my bed, do nothing rather than eat some shitty snacks or sweats. I know I won’t do it, and I won’t plan to do it, because this is a valuable time for myself to get what I want. I have been dreaming for a long time, so I can’t mess it up. But for sure, I also need a balance between work and life. Now my home has become a workplace.
It is all because of fucking period. My womb distracting my brain. THIS IS SO NOT FAIR! I think when I get through this time, every fucking month. But nothing I can change. In fact, I’m enjoying being a woman so I have to accept this gift from Mother Nature. Even though, still not fair, especially I can’t do much about things that I want to do because I’m shitting blood. I even thought of having a smoke. It would be so good, but at the same time, I would feel guilty as well. So I didn’t. I’m quite proud of myself for that.
Anyway, dear my Diary. What I want to say, I’m working on it. To do my best for it. Make my dreams come true! And I’m already halfway because I started.
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